My Poems: Blackened Cell

Blackened Cell – A Poem By: Chyina


There was a time in my life where I felt very lost and alone.  I even toyed with suicide and self mutilation.  Not my proudest moment, but I made it though.  Like all things in my life I wouldn’t be who I am or where I am if it hadn’t been for every joy and pain.  This poem is still one of my favorite works, despite the fact this part of my life has past.  I hope you enjoy it and get as much out of it as I put into it.


About Chyina

Well this is the part of websites/blogs that I don’t like, I have to admit. How is one suppose to describe oneself without coming across as egotistical or bragging? *sighs* I guess the best thing is to be truthful and simply short with what you have to say. Let the rest of the pages and entries speak for themselves. :) First, I like to think of myself as creative. I love art, music, writing, and a bunch of other things. Though we all are guilty of buying the massed produced, China imports, at the local ‘buy it all here’ stores. In the end I would much rather have a handcrafted item. There is simply something more unique about some that actually took thought and effort to get the end result.

Posted on January 28, 2013, in My Poems, My World and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 8 Comments.

  1. Very dark, but we felt things so deeply when we were younger. Toyed with the idea or crossed into dabbling? I used to think I had no basis for understanding the impulses behind cutting, but then I realized we often hurt ourselves in other strange ways. And I can absolutely relate to the need to feel something in order to feel alive at all. I’ve long identified as an “artist” so that need gets sublimated into that, I think. Fortunately, so does the apparent OCD!…

    • Not many people realize that cutting is not suicide, but rather a need for a feeling of some kind. I often reference Pink Floyd’s “Comfortably Numb” when talking about it. You are like in a state of short circuit, and cutting lets you feel something, even if it hurts.

      • Yeah, I get that. I’ve always thought Punk was a much (much!) milder response to the same thing. And a reaction to the usurping of rock by “the establishment.” Now that Rap has gone the same corporate way, I wonder what new thing will be “the people’s” music next.

      • I hope they find something soon. I don’t care for all this “cookie cutter” music that is around today. It drives me nuts sometimes (which isn’t all that hard to do), even when I like the damn songs, lol.

      • As I’m sure you know, pop has always been formulatic (the three-minute, ABAB-bridge-B(B) format goes back to the 60s). I think what’s happening these days takes that to a whole new level of cloned music.

        They’ve analyzed music and derived various success factors. And really, that AB, 3-minute thing comes from the same thing. The observation that people tended not to listen much beyond about 3:30 and that they liked the known comfort of the AB format. It’s just become high science these days with statistical analysis and a fair amount of good data.

        I’m finding the same thing in movies. A cookie cutter sense that makes them seem all the same as candy bars. And I enjoy a candy bar now and then, but it doesn’t satisfy my palette as a constant diet (or even usual diet).

      • It’s not even the length for me. I love classical music, and things like the full versions of Doors songs and such. it’s more the same general lyrics, beats, notes. Like you I’ve seen the same with movies. I know that a lot people want to go with a formula that has been proven to work, but come on! The greats became great because they set the standard, not because they followed it.

      • Some people like the comfort of the familiar (especially, I would guess, in these chaotic times). Hollywood has discovered that people actually do want the trailer to “spoil” the movie to some degree. That’s why so many trailers make you feel like you’ve just watched a really short version of the film.

        And absolutely true. A well-established path may lead to some form of success, but great art almost always comes from breaking new ground, finding a new path.

      • See that’s why I’m weird. I actually get disappointed when the trailer give too much away. I think trailers should give you glimpses and leave you hanging so want to see what happens, not be told what happens.

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